and stomp on it, why dontcha??

This has seriously been one of the most emotionally trying days I’ve ever had.

I kind of want to puke right now.

So my day started out pretty good. I dropped the kids off at their summer program, stopped by a yard sale, and came home to eat breakfast.

Then my helper girl quit. Which was really upsetting because I really liked her and she was really..um..helping.

But then I discovered an entire box of summer clothes which I had thought I had lost, but really had packaged up with Christmas stuff. (Don’t ask me why.) So I thought that my day was turning around.

And then I had to take one of the kids to an appointment that was a pretty emotionally trying thing. And then the SW tells me that they are planning on moving the kids. And then I have to go supervise a visit. And while I am supervising the visit, I get an email from my mortgage dude, who says that despite his best efforts, he can get not get the house to appraise for what we needed.

And really, I sort of expected this. Because I live in the middle of nowhere, it is very hard to find comparable properties.

And there are other issues too, because I am buying a bunch of their furniture and my closing costs are included in my loan and anyway, none of that really matters right now. The point is that we are 7300 dollars from where we need to be.

After some long conversations, it is pretty necessary that the sellers come down to the appraised value if not lower. But because the furniture is included, we might have to negotiate some.

But it seems like I will have to come up with at least 3500, which would really be my closing costs, which were going to be included in my loan but now..aren’t.

And because I just got two new kids and I had to buy a ton of stuff for them, and I had to pay that 900 extra a couple weeks ago, and I just put money down on my wedding and all this, I don’t have an extra 3500 laying around. On top of that, I know I’m going to have expenses with moving..I’m switching electric companies, and all this so I’ll need to put down deposits, and you know how it goes.

So now I am just waiting to see how much the sellers are willing to come down and how much I am going to have to come up with for my closing costs. The sellers are kind of jerks and they are sort of pissed that they are selling the house for what they were, but oh well. They are going to have to deal. I am not going to pay more of the house than what it appraised for.

Meanwhile, I about lost my shit involving the kids. My initial reaction was to just say fine. Fine. Take them. I’m done. Callie, Snowbaby and Bubba are very close to not having to leave. I don’t want to start back at the beginning. I don’t need to lose a kid. I don’t want this anymore. Screw foster care. But..

I’m not going to elaborate on this more, but there is a somewhat more than normal chance that at least the baby would go to TPR. Which is why I took the kids in the first place.

And the reasons behind moving the kids were justified and weren’t my fault. It wasn’t like they were just moving them for the hell of it.

But I got on the phone and we talked about it, and by the end of the talk, the worker agreed that the girls should be able to stay. That is if things stay the way they are. If the reasons why they were considering the move get worse, then I will have to have them moved.

Is this all very confusing?

I feel very confused.

So to recap: I don’t have a helper anymore, I get to keep the girls for now, and I need to sell my kidney so I can get into my new house.

Any takers?

(P.S., you are all very sweet with the donating money thing. But I don’t want to have to do that. I would rather you buy my kidney. Maybe it is time for another virtual yard sale? I’m going to have a real yard sale too. Maybe a bake sale? How about selling raffle tickets to spend a day with Bubba?)

Also, why is it that whenever I go to my new friend’s house, one of my children either pee or poop on her floor?

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